Lately, I've been plagued by intense panic attacks and anxiety. I think it's the result of being socially overwhelmed and smothered by my peers and crazy insane screaming fit between my family members. I tend to just shut down when everything isn't neato keen! I rarely sleep at home now. My house used to serve as a refuge from the outside world, and now it's anything but. Peace in this home is utterly unattainable. Ridiculous! Photos are better, I guess.


These are from a party the crew attended last Friday. The twins are hyper-social, and when hanging around them it's inevitable that you meet everyone under the sun. Due to their strong like for black athletes, I have become well acquainted with a good portion of University of Delaware's football team. I don't know how I feel about this, but those boys sure do know how to party.

Christin and Kristin. Forever <3

God is so good to me... all the time, seriously.
My mother, sister, and father came down to school yesterday for Maryland Day. We went to the Spring Ball game and Ashley came with. I got a chance to see everyone after the game, and I know the boys are so happy football is finally over. We chilled and my parents even took us to dinner. I loved seeing Kourtney. She just gets cuter and cuter as she gets older. I can't wait to see her at 20! It's amazing that my parents will just ride down here to spend time with me. I love my family for that. After my parents left, the real festivities began :) Ashley and I pregamed and then partied. I made myself throw up at the bus stop before we went to the bars. It was.... FUUUUUN. I managed to lose my phone also, but I got that back earlier today. Basically, everything is wonderful. I have some work to do today, but it's not too much. Plus, it's so beautiful outside I want to cry. I have been waltzing around campus is a sports bra, flip flops, and shorts. Now, on to the photos.
( disclaimer: clearly we're drunk in about 99.5% of these photos )
THE END.

Ps. I know more of you hoes have twitter. Fucking add me. I need people to add. https://twitter.com/kristinlake

I would consider myself pretty close with most (if not all) of my teachers and t.a.'s this semester. I'm one of those students that always has a hand raised to answer every question in lecture. I hand in everything on time, and I attend office hours. Yes, I'm pressed, but it is my college education, which is ridiculously expensive. Today in Human Geography discussion, the topic was religion. I answered all the questions in my usual as-a-matter-of-fact way. I even argued that Buddhism is a philosophy and not a religion. Well, I guess it was more of a monologue since no one dared argue back. But after class, I walked out with my t.a. and she said "It doesn't seem like you are too enthusiastic about religion." I didn't immediately get upset, but this bothered me some. It's not that I do not believe in God, but religion is so uncertain. Me, being the know-it-all that I am, I frequently have a hard time grasping religious concepts because they aren't quantifiable. I need data or something I can measure. Religion seems to go against everything I have learned in school. Learning shouldn't be in opposition to religion, but I feel that way at times. It's disheartening.

For instance, there's a muslim girl in my discussion who wears a hijab. The hijab isn't foreign to me at all; many of my friends wear them. But in the back of my mind, I've always have some bias towards Islam. Do the girls feel in any way degraded or demoralized because they must cover themselves? Isn't their religion restricting them? Is that the intention of religion? I have always interpreted religion as a life guideline. The Book says this is how you should live. I never felt restricted though. I don't know. I would rather not offend anyone. Maybe I don't know what I'm saying...

So I haven't really made a sufficient update in a while. Miami was amazing. My birthday was amazing. Everything for the most part is amazing except for the not having an internship yet for summer :( I'm also still on a conquest to find some sort of volunteer work overseas! I want to get out of the country; I just don't want to spend thousands while doing it.



^The twins, Rachel, and I went to University of Delaware two weekends ago. We end up getting kicked out of a party because we were white. Well, you know... they are white. But I wasn't going to leave my friends hanging. So stupid... racism... GRRRR.

Negatives
-I'm still sick. I have a disgusting cough and my nose refuses to stop running. GRRRRR.
-I have an exam on Monday and a presentation I need to start due Tuesday.
-I only have $127 in my bank account. I suck.
-Still no internship... but I did apply for one with the Senate yesterday.
-I don't think I will be applying to BU for Forensic Anthropology... there are literally 50 jobs in the field.
-I totally forgot that TAs have class too. So I can't interview my Geography TA.

Positives
+I got a 90% on my Biological Anthro exam that I didn't really study for
+I got a 97% on my Sociocultural Anthro exam.
+Most likely got an A on my Geography exam.
+Walked around campus with my favorite Anth teacher, Dr. Leslie. She told me I would be very good in the anthropology field. Ah! There's hope.
+I'm going home to Delaware on Friday.
+There's a boy! But my lips are sealed (fingers are bound).

( 3/27/09 I turned 20! )

So, I'm fried right now... and I was thinking about the men I love:

Top NINE
Octavian
John Steinbeck
John F. Kennedy
Walt Whitman
Langston Hughes
James Joyce
Marcus Aurelius
Dirk Nowitzki
Alexander the Great

Negatives
-I received a 4/5 on my geography homework. Stupid, stupid. An 80% is really going to set me back.
-I didn't get accepted into the internship program I applied for :(
My application questions were on point, and I did extremely well in the interview. They seemed to like all of my responses, and I seemed like the perfect fit for the position. It makes me angry I didn't get it. I think I was extremely qualified. I guess I won't be going to Uganda... *sigh*

Positives
+I received a 100% on my geography quiz today. My TA said I did very well with the presentations and question answering.
+Today was my last day of classes. I leave for Florida with my best friends on Sunday.
+My biological anthropology professor and I had a nice talk today. She is letting me look at and rewrite some of her master's thesis. She's going to help me publish some work :) I'm ecstatic!
+Tonight is the boys basketball game and then THIRSTY TURTLE with my boos.

The positives definitely outweigh the negatives. I should be happy.